What is surprising to me often and upsetting is this:I will think that Howey and I are past something, where I want to be...we occasionally share a laugh in a pm kind of thing. Then more than once I run across myself being mentioned or associated with an apparent plague. This isn't about a free forum living or dying to me or my love;the vids. It's about the core people who I care about which is the only reason that I keep trying. As Cass mentioned, a monitor administrator can't be intimately/emotionally involved in every thought happening on something that it takes about 15 seconds to set up.
he asks one thing of you.. to keep the conspiracy to your section.
you can't see what is and isn't conspiracy tho and that's where the problem is..
you also like to throw wrenches into topics and derail them..

not that topics have to stay on course, but for example, the other day in the scott thread I mentioned 'police state'.. and you replied with an FDA thing that really had nothing to do with private prisons.. Ok, no big deal since I went there with you and it turned into a good conversation-- I mean, I know Puff mentioned it wasn't very adult, LOL, but I had fun.. I tried to convey that with the smileys, but maybe that 'fun' didn't come thru..
... anyway, if you did that once or twice then it's no big deal, but you do it
all the time.. and that becomes maddening..
Just start a new topic that's all..
but, imagine someone coming to your video thread posting about a book they had read or a new restaurant they had tried.. and then doing that all the time. It would become maddening to you to the point where you were sensitive to anything that person posted anywhere on the board..
Does that help explain it a little?

and the stuff about Howie and I are either lying, doing something suspicious or untrustworthy and whatnot.. really has to end right now... you want to call me a bitch, that's fine I am and can be.... but to call me suspicious and unbelievable is crossing a line that I'm not going to tolerate. Like it or not, I am a mod here.. and I don't, nor have I, lied to anyone... I haven't any reason to. Some of you people know more about my personal life and marriage than even my family knows.. I have nothing to hide and won't be accused otherwise..I don't lie or post in a fashion to deceive anyone on any topic... again, I have no need to... and if you take that as your cue to find a way to 'get at me' because you want to pick at me, you do it at your own peril IMO..
if you have an issue where you think I, or Howie or
anyone else on this forum has been unfair or has lied or been untruthful or hurt you in some way.. PM one of us and we'll figure it out.. There is way to figure out, fix it, and move on.. but only if someone is willing to share instead of letting it build up. For the most part all Howie or me want is a free-flow of ideas and conversations, with as little limits as possible, but
some limits in order to keep a good flow of things coming..(and Howie from being sued HA!)
as i said before.. in a much smaller way.. I think we should all take a breath and "reboot".
